I haven't felt like blogging in a couple of days which isn't like me! :( I'm so tired and frustrated, especially this morning, that I could just sit here and cry!!
It has nothing to do with being sore. In fact, nearly all of the soreness has gone away even after my workouts. I'm just drained from juggling home life, work life, mommy life (caring for my 3 1/2 year old daughter), being a wife, eating healthy (which takes time, believe it or not!), working out 6 days a week and then trying to squeeze out a little personal time for myself (and a nap!) with whatever is left over of my time.
It's no wonder that people are overweight! Who has time to eat healthy and exercise? How can you say that taking care of your health and body is a top priority when you have to make money, care for a child, foster a marriage, manage a household....I can see how people put their health at the bottom of the totem pole. Yeah, some people put it there out of laziness. Some people put it there out of ignorance. But you know what? Lots of people put it there because they have no other choice. I firmly believe that.
I'm not a quitter and don't proclaim to be one. My actions and behaviors throughout life support that statement. I'm not giving up on getting healthy. It's just that I know something or some things will have to give in order to make that happen. But what? Time with my daughter and husband? Loss of hours/money at work? Slacking off on paying bills? How can you possibly justify that these people and priorities should take a back seat to my health goals?
Give me a frickin' break.
I'm between a rock and a hard place.
Losing weight in theory is great...but what else am I losing in the process??
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You are gaining everything. The only thing you will be losing is weight. You cannot quit! I know you can do this. I look up to you Heather...i wish I could have the ability to finish things that I start. When you get passionate about something you are the only one that I know that sees it through. How worse would you feel if you stopped now? You are making great strides and you probably dont see it. Keep going. Most of this is mental ...your mind is playing tricks on you right now. Just keep doing what you are doing...everything else will fall into place....it always does...doesnt it?
ReplyDeleteHeather, Brett is right you know! These are your exact words: "Who has time to eat healthy and exercise? How can you say that taking care of your health and body is a top priority when you have to make money, care for a child, foster a marriage, manage a household...." Guess what Heather? You do! I do! We all do! The fact is we all HAVE to! It's a lot easier now to lose a little time with your daughter or husband, or whatever it may be NOW rather than NOT BE AROUND for any of it later. Heather, this is not about you losing weight. This is strictly about YOU becoming a healthier person so you CAN see your daughter get married, so you can spend less on tons of hospital bills later on, so your husband dosn't have to make drastic decisions in a hospital room about your life. I have seen all these happen before and trust me, you don't want to go there. You have made the best decision of your life! I'm not kidding, the absolute best! You have decided to make a change for the better. I totally look up to you for that. As Brett said, your emotions are controlling you at this point. This is a normal phase that everyone gows through when you make this kind of change. These thouhgts will pass. It will be hard and nothing less. You already know that.
ReplyDeleteHeather, I do the exact same as you - I have to eat healthy and exercise, I have to make make money, care for a child, make that 2 children, foster a marriage, manage a household. Heather, you are doing GREAT and are on the right path. You have already succeeded. You are now living a normal life. Now you have to sustain it. I know you can because you are becoming strong minded, strong willed. That's what it takes and you are doing it. You are doing just fine. And Heather, I won't let you fail!
Remember, this is a marathon, not a sprint.
ReplyDeleteAlong the way, you'll climb tough hills & trip over pot holes. Sometimes, you'll glide down slopes with ease. The important thing is to stay in the middle - don't get too high or too low.
Work & family life will adjust on their own to find their best viewing spot along the marathon to cheer you on.
- Jeff