LOST TWO AND GAINED SIX

Hearing about anyone dying from a heart attack, especially at such an early age, always seems to pinch at your own heart. Twice this week I heard of young men dying from a sudden heart attack. One man was 25 years old and playing softball at the time. The other man was 43 years old. I don't know either of these men personally but it still shocks me at the seriousness of heart disease. If these men, especially the 25 year old, can die quickly from a heart attack then what about someone like me who is overweight? What kind of stress have I created on my own heart and what does that mean for MY future? How quickly they were gone......shocking even for someone who is a stranger to these men.

Gained 6 pounds this week for absolutely no reason. I've grown accustomed to the scale staying still but not going up! I think Chad might be surprised as well. We're focusing on my nutrition and I have to eat 446 calories every 3 hours (6 times a day) plus exercise 2 hours a day. Plus I'm counting calories and journaling everything I eat. I think this will definitely work.

I never buy pants. I prefer shorts. Pants have never fit me well and I try to avoid buying pants if I can help it. Well, Katie and I are going to New England in October and I'll definitely need pants. So I ordered some pants off the LL Bean website and they arrived yesterday. I ordered what I thought was my "old" size, half expecting the pants wouldn't fit. As I pulled the pants out of the bag, I held them up in the air and thought there was no way they would fit me. Gosh! They look so BIG!!!!!!!! I stripped down, tried on the pants and quickly realized they fit me quite well. Ugh! That's bad!! I shouldn't be fitting in that size any longer!!

So it's been a frustrating and sad week. Two stories of men who died of heart attacks, gained 6 pounds and purchased large pants that unfortunately fit me. Hopefully next week will be better!!