CAN'T SLEEP....

My appointment with the personal trainer is just 5 hours away and I've been awake since 4am! I wonder if the heavy bags under my eyes will add more weight to the scale this morning??

I didn't sleep well last night. It probably didn't help that I had one of Katie's nursery rhyme songs stuck in my head! (...sing a song of six pence a pocket full of rye.....) But I kept stressing about my appointment this morning. I think everyone can relate to the fear of stepping on a scale regardless of your size. But when you are overweight it's enormously more difficult! (no pun intended! lol) I have an aversion to full length mirrors because I hate to see myself in them. I'm quite certain the studio will have mirrors everywhere! Plus it's just plain difficult to admit you are failing at something and need help. HOWEVER...all concerns and early morning negativity aside, I AM very excited to be focused on getting my body healthy. Again, it's not just for me but it's especially for Matt and Katie. I can do it! :)